Under Construction....

HOME:  This is right smack dab in the middle of my house right now. I feel like I AM under construction in every aspect of my life right now. I don't think there is one finished room in our home at this moment. Oh wait...there is. The front bathroom...but that toilet clogs on a regular basis so it doesn't count in my book.

I told Dave this weekend that I felt that we were always going to be THAT family with the messy garage. Always. I wish it would change, but after 17 years together, we can only keep it clean for a good two weeks. I blame our small house. 1300 square feet is comfortable but small. The garage is the gathering place for everything that doesn't fit! So home is under construction. Partly because of the 1300 square feet issue. We are always trying to change it up a bit to feel a little roomier. Like in the picture above. The office used to be a closed in space right in the middle of our home. Now we are opening it up to make two computer/homework spaces for better open living. I'll keep you posted.

BLOG: People that know me personally know that I change the decor in my home regularly. Just little things, but I constantly like to change with the seasons. Fortunately in CA we only have two seasons! Well my blog is like my home away from home. There will be some changes this week. Watch for them. I think it is exciting. But also please be patient this week as the Life Made Lovely design team tweak around with my layout and settings. I have a huge crush right now on the color Navy Blue! Watch for little snippets of that color making an appearance on my blog.

By far the blog under construction is the easiest in my life. The dreamiest actually. Partly because I hire help in this area. I share my dreams in my head and Heather and Mollie are doing all the hard work for a really affordable price. The house dreams/designs aren't so affordable!

PERSONAL:  I sat in church yesterday and realized I am barely doing enough to get by. That is a crappy feeling. I'm barely teaching my children enough spiritually, we are barely praying enough, barely reading our scriptures enough. Just getting by isn't a great feeling spiritually. Not when you know the blessings of heaven can be opened up if we do our part. Not just barely. I need to work on that and make some changes.

Also under construction is my issue with PROCRASTINATION. I'm still working on that too. I have figured out what works for me to help beat procrastination. I love making lists of what needs to get done in a day. But my lists were always too long. So I'd ignore it because I knew I was just setting myself up for failure at the end of the day. Why not just start the day as a failure....OK kidding! So now, my list needs to fit on a Post-It Note for the day. I allow myself one item to transfer to the next day...the rest are non-negotiable. There are usually 4-5 important things on the list with my hardest 'to-do's' or least favorites at the top. With this shorter list I often times feel like I've succeeded at the end of each day...that is, as long as I don't add MAKE DINNER to that list!

Also personally, I need to clear my head a bit because I am finding myself completely blanking out on people I know. I look at them and can't for the life of me remember their name. It is scary. I have a friend that when she turned 30 felt like she was 'losing' it. She couldn't remember things, couldn't remember peoples names. I'm there right now. She went to the doctor and the doctor told her she is a busy mom. That was her diagnosis.

Well the other day...{and this is so embarrassing to admit, but I keep having nightmares about it} I was in my car with Blake. A friend pulled up next to me and waved. I didn't recognize her right off the bat with her glasses on and she knew it. She pulled her glasses off and then I really waved. We unrolled our windows, exchanged quick hellos and how are yous and then she told me she had just had surgery...had I heard? And with that...out went her name...who she was. I knew I knew her, but couldn't figure out her name when we drove away. Still can't for the life of me figure it out. It makes me so mad, but it also makes me realize that I need to simplify some things in my life to make room in my head for the important things...like my friends' names!

I joke that this might be early signs of dementia but it does scare me.  I crawled into bed last night vowing and praying for some changes. Some construction in my own life this week. I also curled up next to Dave and said...."Hunny, if I ever forget who you are...will you just hold me and keep me safe until I remember you?" And, I was dead serious!

Please tell me I'm not alone......